TGIF

Words cannot explain how glad I am to know TODAY IS FRIDAY! Honestly, this week hasn't been easy. (Hmm.. that's what I say every week) Work has been mighty insane. And a Black Cat Day struck me - a day where nothing goes well.

It was Tuesday:

1) Cried for one hour at my desk

2) My contact lens went crazy and one fell out so I had to attend a super important meeting with clear vision in only one eye. I had to look at everyone very intently to make out their expressions. They must have thought that I'm a really earnest person.

3) Coffee Bean spilled Matcha Latte on me. I rushed to clean my Melissa shoes first.

4) Coffee Bean forgot about my order

5) When it arrived, my salad had no salmon. I was a hungry girl that day.

So cute!

But some positive stuff did come along! Coffee Bean gave me two slices of cake to make up for it.

Anyhoos, I feel like a lunatic this month all thanks to my womb. She is the brain of me right now. And every action I make goes through her which is why I have an unexplained craving for Red Velvet cake solely because of its redness. I also have a roaring urge to hack the heads off a couple of people because of my need to see red and also the shit I have to deal with everymuthafuking day!

Grrr...

Just received news that my deadline will be brought forward by a grand total of 24 DAYS. Ahh.. my womb suggest that I chainsaw their heads off. The End. No need for a deadline. No more project. Tyvm. 

Grrr.

Dieting ~

Today is Day 2 of my CNY diet. Every CNY, my relatives will comment on my weight gain ever since I hit puberty. I think it didn't occur to them to congratulate me on the growth of boobs, instead, they zoom in on my hips and arms. And that has been happening everymuthafuking year! Except that one year when I lost scary amount of weight. Now that I'm healthy and all, they keep harping on my weight and size. My BMI is not even over 20 can! How fat can I be?! ( >.<)

According to them, I'm only 'siu' when I'm skinny skinny. Sorry, I don't have the time to gym like I used to. I have a full time job CAN? Not like I can depend on anyone else for my living expenses.

Whatever. Unfrotch, I am scarred for life, so to prevent the usual comments of 'you've grow fatter', I'm going on a diet. Since I've succeeded once, I can do it again.

Lunch: Scrambled Egg White, Tuna & Tomatoes, Sweet Potatoes

Plus one apricot.

Thou shalt not call me fat!

Happy Times, Grim Talks

Finally met up with Zee yesterday together with Wuby. We went to Parco Millenia Walk and had Nantsuttei Ramen. But before that, while waiting for Wuby, Zee and I went to Yamakawa where I found Matcha Kitkat! T_T Been looking for it since I tried it at Narita.

Yes, a bit expensive but... it's worth it. Swear.

Found the full range of Meltykiss! I thought I was cursed because no matter which Watsons I go to, I just can't find them. *Broke curse like a boss*

Forgot to rotate photo. The best ramen in town. As of yesterday.

Wuby Zee. Like some sorta brand.

Looked so tired here. Sigh.

Went to 3 Inch Sin for coffee. Molten Lava Cake was meh. Wuby was spewing out 1001 ways of why it went wrong. #chefsisterproblem

Super tiring to try to squeeze everyone into the frame.

Forced them to take a proper group shot. In the toilet. HAHA. Friends for 8 years! 我们老了。

At 3 Inch Sin, we were chatting about our plans for the future and we realised that the future looks bleak. Standard of living in Singapore is really high and the job market is crazily competitive; almost everyone has a degree/diploma these days so what sets us apart? There is no point in splurging a huge sum on a degree that can no longer give you the advantage the previous generation preached about. Things are leveling out - it is possible for a diploma holder to have equal opportunities as degree grads, you just need to prove you are smart. Some degree grads aren't the brightest sparks around. True shocking story. That's the same for every qualification out there I guess except maybe Mensa?

I do agree that the draw of a university education is the network you can tap on but when tuition fees are astronomical, is there a point in being chained to a loan for a supposed advantage that is losing its edge?

And do I want to study something that I'm not interested in just to run society's rat run with the bondage of debt weighing down my every step? Is this how a good future should be? Is this life?

Erm... How did a happy blog post ended sounding so emo...

Was reminded of this bit in The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman:

“Kiss a lover, 

Dance a measure, 
Find your name 
And buried treasure. 

Face your life, 
It's pain, It's pleasure, 
Leave no path untaken.” 

I may be delusional but I'm still hoping that there is path in life where every step is fulfilling. An office job does not cut it, that I know for myself.

皆さん、がんばってください! (^.^)

Cecil McBee e-Mook

As mentioned yesterday, I committed a sin and purchased a Cecil McBee e-Mook along with Vivi February (Atsuko Maeda is in it! Will find time to translate her interview). And since I have some spare time today, I thought of revealing what's in it even if no one is interested. Hurhur. #sadlife

Cecil McBee first started in 1987, at 渋谷109.

Sigh. So pretty.

The premium gift - Cecil McBee Quilt Bag!

Zipper so pretty.

Shows you the history of Cecil McBee.

Their shopping bags are insanely gorgeous. It will make me go super eco cos I will hoard the bags till the day I die and never throw them away.

Fujii Lena.

Nana from After School.

That's it! Short preview. It's basically a catalogue which is tempting me to go on Runway Channel! The perk would be the premium gift.

Though the bag is a little smaller than expected but... it's Cecil McBee! Sigh... I'm such a sucker fan.

Next would be Murua's e-Mook! 

Breakdown

Yup, today I had an emotional breakdown. Work was insane yesterday. I manually keyed in and printed 140 exclusive certificates! On top of that, I completed the newsletter for the week. Was all harried and my boss could still walk up to my desk and asked me to work on this, follow up on that. HELLO YOU GET ME AN INTERN TO DO THIS LA.
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While typing this entry, the sneaky Update Computer' notice popped up and I whacked 'Enter' before I realised it! So bloody laptop froze and rebooted. And it took forever doing that.

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Anyway, back to ranting, my boss thinks everymuthafukingthing can happen instantaneously - no need time to type docs, to send emails, to print things, to think. He came from the era where he didn't need to write his own letters. His secretary transcribed for him! WTF. Generation gap can.

Oh yes, and he wants me to publicise to the housing estates so I'm gonna go to the flats near my place to stuff flyers under each door. Kthxbye.

With all that stress (and nonsense), I reached my breaking point. Thank you Wuby for trying to comfort me and to D for trying to teach Wuby how to comfort me. T_T Touched so shall cry again.

I really felt very suffocated... but after venting it out... it seems most of my anguish has dissipated and I can fight again so moral of the story is: it is good to cry so let me punch you in your face! HAHA. K I'm crazy.

-awkward silence-

Ah.. photos this week:

すみません I Overslept Bento

Catfish Bento. Leftovers from Sunday's dinner. The catfish sting me.

W and his new craze - UFO Catcher

Woohoo~ This Hello Kitty costs S$2!

D remembered seeing a Wreck it Ralph game and so we went to look for it.

They were very excited. Going "YES!" and punching the air at the same time. Still give me judgey face when I wanted the Hello Kitty. Pff.

MUST BUY NEXT MONTH. THE END.

Hokkaido Ramen with colleagues! Here with M.

And then I sinned. Wanted a Cecil McBee ふくぶくろ but they were all sold out! So I consoled myself with an e-Mook. I am a bit disappointed by the size of the tote bag but still - Cecil McBee!

Dies.

New Uniqlo poncho and new picture app.

Old face and new ぷりくら app.

Sorry, my face is the last visual of this entry. Goodnighty!

Why O-pun Sesami?

I decided to start blogging again when I felt that I'm losing myself to the mundane and stressful routine of a 9 to 6 job. Seeing that I was feeling so worn out and low even though I'm only in my early twenties struck me hard. I'm still young! My life shouldn't be this way! I should see more, experience more and actually pay more attention to the good things around me.

So with that in mind, I'm hoping to capture the little things in life that makes me happy.

And why O-pun Sesami? D suggested 'open sesame' because it was one of the punny jokes I made but 'open sesame' has been taken! So 'o-pun sesami' because I'm learning japanese now and I was yelling at a japanese sesame mill. That's that.

What went down this week?

My funny face omu rice bento.

I am planning to pack my own bento everyday for lunch because I'm sick of the food around my office and it's healthier this way.

Dinner at Yayoiken with D!

Good curry rice. 

D with his 味噌鯖 (Miso Saba).

Shopping at Uniqlo ^.^ 

I've been shopping a lot this week. It is a form of therapy. So while shopping (again) with D, I looked at him sheepishly and tried to explain myself... D said he understands. T_T

I feel alive and more of myself again when I'm shopping for clothes and all. Does that make sense?

Well... dressing up is self-expression and I desperately need that! *shakes fist at job*

Trifles at Boss' house. Yes, we were invited to his house. Gulps.

Me spraying whipped cream on them trifles. Think I destroyed them.

And woohoo ~ I can tie my hair up! It has been almost 2 years since that was possible. Hmm my complexion looks really good here. Thanks to an amazing app I discovered. (^O^)

Kay. That's the end of my first (bimbo) blog entry in 2013.